c land

my first half week in C land has been splendid
tomorrow we head out to Rexburg, Idaho to pick up chelly's belongings.





I'll have to wait to get home and scan my instax fotos!

oh Canada

Here i come!
Tomorrow ,at this time, i will be arriving to Calgary, Canada, where i will spend about 12 days with the lovely.....

Lady C







And i will make sure to take this

ps birthday Santa i really need some instx film... PLEASE!!

And of course ill be taking some of my other cameras too!
I haven't seen Lady C since dec of last yr!! Im quite stoked!! :)

wish wish

normally i ask for nothing,
BUT
just am wishing
for:

birthday Santa,

i've been way good at 20 yrs...
Please give me some of these yummies :)
love,
b

all on me

its half empty, though i'd like it to be full.
sad movies don't make me cry, i wish they would.
the blame is all on you, but its really just about me.
get so angry i could yell so loud and make no sense at all
but never give it up.
I don't want to be this way and sister says i will be alone.


addison just pooped in her undies. she has gotten so use to being sprayed down outside that she just stands there and waits for it. then runs around in the yard while i squirt her with the hose. summer is coming to an end. 5 months of it is too much for me, never again.

the photo above is of my latest headband. i loves it

Happy Friday Folks!

don't know what to do with myself.

if you know me, you must know i do bunches of nothing, almost all the time. my days this summer mostly consisted of arriving to work 10 mins late, Mon-Friday, getting home and passing out for 30 mins to hours.... Mucho baby time with the girls, making creations and NOTHING!!!!! Well I will add in that I spent some days with my girlfriends, not too much. So this weekend was completely out of space for me. It wasn't fabulous, just different. I hung out with ppl and i went to parties.. :O yes, yes, i know... But I had a blast, ignored the fact that I was the only sober one and hit the dance floor like nobodies business. it was fun, CRAZY fun. of course when you are in del rio and going to par-tays, you can NEVER avoid drama, so yes, got the dose of it. but it was fun and now its over and i must get back to my life of nothings. i like my safe place in my safe world of brooke-ness. i do go insane but i deal. it's only my first day of non-work and i was going BiiZERK! creations, creations, thinking and creating.
too manys days til Hawaii :(
i will survive.

growing...

"shhh...... can you hear that?? Im growing!!"
I really don't remember where i heard that from, movie or what. But the truth is, Im a growing woman! less than a month ill be more womanly than ever before and im pretty stoked bout it!

ps
im learning portuguese!!

can't help but miss

(addy over a year ago)


i've spent most of my life missing. if its not you, its him, or her, or mom, or frenchie.
and i hate realizing that its hard not to miss. i don't like it.


i found several photos of my days with baby addy, they made me so happy.

i have a problem with waiting

Before

After

i have an absolute hate for waiting. ive posted about this not too long ago... its a problem.
thats why i see a problem with having a successful future, because next year seems too long to wait to graduate . september 15 (hawaii) seems faraway, reaching the age of 21 is taking too long, creating photog-self is getting annoying. having plans always puts a little sunshine, even if it lasts almost a whole day, on my wait.

Above is the hand coloring part of my portfolio. I grew incredible love for this medium. And plan on continuing this work in my future business. Now all i have to do is wait.....

by Ting

My sister's friend Ting Shen, I've been friends with him via internet for over a year, came down to visit the first 2 weeks of July in Del Rio. He has started a friends project and asked to take some photos of me. Though I am not the photogenic type, I truly like the color values in these photos. Especially love that this is film work. Thanks Ting! :)