swim.

my boyfriend/fiance took these awesome photos with my underwater disposable camera.
He's fabulous, so proud to call him my lover.

I like to think back to last tuesday when tantan proposed, and when i do this, i think back to me freaking, freaking out. I must confess, i hesitated, i even asked if he was sure... but i knew i didn't want to say no. the rest of the night i was pretty shaky, overwhelmed... and i could see on tanner's face that he was concerned but he is so loving, so patient. i remember getting the sudden craving,the need to swim. i started swimming when i became a lifeguard my junior yr in high school and that became a mandatory thing, exercise and stress reliever. but i didn't get to swim, it was late at night. but just experiencing the body crave of swimming, nice, yummy feeling.

my heart

my heart is in so much pain. i miss my baby, i miss Tanner....
Being able to jump into his bed and waking him up at 7 am was soooo great. Going to bed with Tanner in my mind, in my house, in the room next door, was such a blessing. and being asked to marry him was the greatest. i am IN DEEP LOVE with Tanner D. Fullmer.

I'd give everything I have
and anything I'd do
if forever I could call you my boo.
A husband and a father
I want you to be my childrens mother
for you and me it would only be right
if I asked you to spend eternity with me
tonight.
From the beginning I have always loved you
and kept picturing days when you'd say " I do"
You're spiritual, fantastic, artistic, creative,
kind and caring
Even through cockroaches for you I'd be daring
To love and protect
from me you will get
My heart and my soul
I put in your control
You mean everything and more to me
so that's why I'm on one knee
Asking you Brooke Angel Powell Will you marry me?
-Tanner

That along with a fire in my backyard, with fire in chimney and a photo slide show is how my hunk of love proposed. :) he is so gangsta, so cute!

So as I mope around, cry and miss him, I still have the ability of cheering up by looking at the beautiful ring he put on my finger. He loves me and I absolutely love him. soooo grateful he was able to spend a week with me.

ps wedding this summer!!! :O
oh-so excited and full of love

"For what we love determines what we seek.

What we seek determines what we think and do.

What we think and do determines who we are—and who we will become.

...you will find the love of wrong things. And at the heart of joy, you will find the love of good things."

-President Dieter F. Uchtdorf, The Love of God


3 days!! Sooooo excited!!

bakey bakey!!!

Today was red velvet cake day for me!!

My first time making cake from scratch :) was very yummy but too much sweetness for me. and i need to work on the velvetiness of my cake. but i give myself a pat on the back for my first cake!



I've been working on my cinnamon rolls. getting better n better!

love at first sight

it was love at first sight and i'll never forget it.....





i had the opportunity to witness this lovely little thing come into this world.
such a magical and spiritual experience.