i feel like im in heaven...

Oh...
I made dinner tonight... And Im so happy!! The best meal Ive had since Ive been here in Rexburg... I made rice and enchiliadas. :) The rice was delicish.. My rice has never been soon good... And my enchiliadas were very good but made with different sauce, a little different but very comforting.. I felt so warm and very mexican.. I love my real mexican food.. and I wish i could eat some tapatios... I could cry just thinking about it... But anyway, for pics and more details go to my friends Holly's page http://hollyhdays.blogspot.com/ :)

falling, falling slowy..

..slowly they fall. the leaves are falling.
So beautiful. I love it. I have been feeling very discouraged for the past week and a half. What am I doing here? What am i doing with my life? I have been scared, wondering if I am where I thought I once was suppose to be. In reality, one will never be quite sure where they should be, you just have to take a breather and live. And thats my problem in life, I panic way too much.. I think way ahead and at times don't allow myself to enjoy the moment. I jump, skip, hop and miss the things I use to look forward to. So many days of no motion, feeling paralyzed by fear... Sharing my thoughts and feelings with my sisters really helped out but I still remained motionless. Then yesterday, searching for inspiration, searching for the feeling of clear, fresh air, I found it. I found the peace, I found my center of freedom and the belt around the waist felt loose.. Our campus has a beautiful garden area.. Nature is beauty, beauty is art. Nature, beauty, art makes me want to fly... So I must live. Live for myself. And let the times roll along and just be. I will never find out what I am to do in life, where I belong, if I don't allow myself to experience, and somewhere along the way I will magically know!

score.. LOSE!

Had my first soccer game last night.. We lost. It wasn't great but fun. It was so awkward for me and I was really rusty.. But its ok. The guys on my team are real cool, mature and encouraging though I really was in fear of playing.. My blogs are so boring these days but that is how I have been these days, boring...
My lovely friend Holly was nursing me! She is wonderful... And my roommates were in the background saying. "oh it doesn't hurt, I don't feel it, do you feel? Oh, its like candy on Christmas" LOL. I was like a little kid screaming a bit because of the pain... Oh, how fun!!
Oh yeah.. WE LOST!!! 0-2! But who cares?? I wasn't mad or ANGRY like back in the days of high school where I would lose it when we lost a game! Even funnier that one team prays before the game and the other team gives the closing prayer.. so AWESOME!!

Happy HAPPy bIrThDAy!!! To.... YOU!!

Ashlie

Me and Natalie


April

me, natalie and marlene

September is a BIG birthday month in my family!!

April's bday was Sept 5th

My bday was the 12th

Today is ASHLIES!!! :)

And tomorrow is my mommys and Natalies!! :)

I also have several cousins too... like marlene(sept 5th)

My sisters and mother are so gorgeous gals and I LOVE THEM to PIECES!!!!

They are my best friends and have taught me so much...

I am grateful to my Heavenly Father for them!

Happy Birthday Powell girls and Mother Mills! :)

blog junkie...

Alrighty..

I know I said I wouldn't be blogging often but Im just addicted.. Im a blogspot junkie... I haven't been very interesting these days but I just enjoy reading other blogs...

So...

I started practicing for soccer... Im an animal... We only messed around for no more than 45 mins and look at my jacked up legs... This is exactly why mother fussed so much throughout high school bout me playing soccer.. But i never really cared. I love playing. It makes me free, feel so happy, forgetting all my troubles. It was the one thing that made it seem like everything would be alright. And well makes sense these days as well.. I need it so much now..

And...

It was HOLLY's Bday!!

It funny how we came about being friends.. Her and our canadian friend, Chelsea, just walked into our apartment one day and well they just started coming and coming and they just grew onto us..! But Holly is a hit! She is way cool and is related to the HALLMARK greeting card co. ppl. Her name is Holly Hallmark! How rad is that?? And she has met famous ppl from all over! And her loverboy is british! How hott is that??

I wish I had a loverboy :(... its been so long.....

new room, soon to be old....

There are 3 rooms in our apartment... 2 girls to every room... Will I was the fortunate one to end up with the entire room to myself!!! So my wonderful sister, Ashlie, had a fantastic idea! To move the beds together to have one HUGE bed :) And have sort of a fort under... I did this on my bday but I believe I will have to change back soon... My RA, Head resident lady is doing clean check tomorrow... I believe she will have something to say about this...

i think its strange you'll never know..

how much i miss you... how pointless it is for me to love you.You'll never know why... You'll never know how..All you will ever know is that you hurt me,that you let me go... but i miss you and ive been missing you over a year.. and im all alone... like i always have been....

and Im getting older.....

Sarah got me both... Mary chipped in 4 cents...





So yes...
Im getting older....
Friday was my bday!! Whoo... hoo!!
My roommates are so sweet! I honestly love them......
They got me balloons and a snickers bar and Jess paid for my dinner :)
We went to a dance party too!! Was fun....
And to prove the fact that Im getting older,
Wednesday I was called as Relief Society President!
Hah! Today I taught the lesson... I was a nervous wreck...
But to make me feel better,
all the sisters came up to me and told me I was beautiful...
and that I did really good...It was really sweet of them!
Im really excited but Im quite frightened....

*So I hope to not blog as often as I do... I should be busy these days with school, church and Im joining a co ed soccer team!! :0 And Im going to start to spin and abs that rock, and just start working out often!! I just really want to keep busy!!

Seeds & Trees....

Every Tuesday we have devotional here on campus. The entire campus gathers to here the speakers. Sometimes it may be the general authorities, or other inspirational speakers. Today we heard from President Clark and his wife, it was a wonderful message!
"Seeds we are planting today will grow into mighty oaks....."- Jacob Spori(1st President of campus) When new students arrive to BYUI we are given these little pin with an acorn on it. We become Student Alumni Ambassadors and then the day you graduate you receive another pin but with an oak tree on it. I thought that was really cute. And I LOVE trees. I always have. I use to paint, draw and photographs all the time.

Yesterday was the first day of school and today was the second... DUH.. But today was so amazing..... Just so incredible... I was on a spiritual high... My art teachers are wonderful! So incouraging.. So many people look down upon those who study art, I know when I was asked what I would major in and I replied photography no one took me serious.. But I am serious and art is magnificent, even FANTASTIC!!! All my classes here involve the gospel. I really appreciate how the professors apply religion to art!

This is the Taylor building, where all the religion classes are held and broadcastings as well. Oh man! I had my BOM class today... AMAZING!!! I was almost put to tears.. People must think Im crazy but I've been wanting this so bad for so long! When I spoke to my friends and told them how amazing school was here and why, then just didn't get it.

I got out of class early today. So I sat in the beautiful green grass and soaked up the sun... Enjoying it while I can :) I love how everyone does that here. We sit, lay and play in the grass.... Back at home people would call me a tree hugger or eye me weirdly... It's because everyone appreciates grass here :)


BTW, I probably won't be blogging very often.. soon... Our ward Bishop spoke to me today... I'll give an update about that Sunday evening..... ;) But there's a possibilty I may continue to blog on a regular basis, if I learn to balance things out... !!

School time

Sarah...

starving sarah....
greasy pizza....

Ugh... i am definitely not gaining the freshman 15...

First of all, Im not a freshman, Im a junior,

and second of all, thats disgusting.

But it is my first time away from home.

But I won't let it happen to me!

We have several little "restaurants" here on campus(unhealthy food!!)

but i rather eat what i have in my little room..

but my roommates like to eat out..

Today was the first day of school!! Kinda intense...

Im only taking 13 hours, so far, but they are mostly studio...

So stoked for darkroom time.... And my Art Readings class.

I love to interpret & analyze literature :) Its going to be a tough semester

but it'll be great! I just know it!!

who's got a birthday coming up???

ME!!!

Spirit of Ricks.....

Rexburg, ID temple
My new home
Hart Auditorium
West field or something like that

I am currently residing at BYUI!!! It is so wonderful... Im loving it and truly hope it only gets better. So there's a little something here in Rexburg called the "Spirit of Ricks". You feel it before you even hear about it. It is an absolutely beautiful feeling. It basically is the love for the gospel we all share in this little town. It is amazingly spiritual here. It is what I have been lacking and searching for for so long and now.... TaaaaDaaaa-M!!! School hasn't started yet but we've had many programs and little activities to help us learn more about campus, get comfortable and make new friends! It's all so very awesome :) Its incredible how the Lord prepares and has these amazing places for His children to learn, be educated and nearer them to Him. And it is way gorgeous out here. This is definitely my kind of place.

And I room with 5 other girls! Hah!! We live in a 3 bdrm apartment with a living room, and one bathroom(1 shower & toilet!!!)! LOL. But we will manage! And I am so excited for the semester to begin(next Monday) I know I am in a wholesome enviroment and will learn soooo much!! And of course my testimony will be strengthened! :)