falling, falling slowy..

..slowly they fall. the leaves are falling.
So beautiful. I love it. I have been feeling very discouraged for the past week and a half. What am I doing here? What am i doing with my life? I have been scared, wondering if I am where I thought I once was suppose to be. In reality, one will never be quite sure where they should be, you just have to take a breather and live. And thats my problem in life, I panic way too much.. I think way ahead and at times don't allow myself to enjoy the moment. I jump, skip, hop and miss the things I use to look forward to. So many days of no motion, feeling paralyzed by fear... Sharing my thoughts and feelings with my sisters really helped out but I still remained motionless. Then yesterday, searching for inspiration, searching for the feeling of clear, fresh air, I found it. I found the peace, I found my center of freedom and the belt around the waist felt loose.. Our campus has a beautiful garden area.. Nature is beauty, beauty is art. Nature, beauty, art makes me want to fly... So I must live. Live for myself. And let the times roll along and just be. I will never find out what I am to do in life, where I belong, if I don't allow myself to experience, and somewhere along the way I will magically know!