Fuji Instax 200

My week with aubrey and addy
Sundays I like to runaway and be in the calm.
Tacos Al Pastor in Cd Acuna, Mexico. You have no idea what you missing out...
di-VINE!! Scrumpcious, i tell you!! Went with the friendly Jesus and Ape

So the Fuji Instax 200 is my new toy, its fun but the film is pricey... here are my shots so far.

*Happy Wednesday!

you color me happy

i just have began to realize,
that i often depend on others to make me happy.
To make me happy with their approval, happy with their smiles, their stories... Happy with objects. Last night while video chatting with C, Chelsea the lil lady, I was talking to her about being happy. I told her how ppl, I raise my hand at this, associate marriage with happiness. I grew up in the real world of black, white and gray, i saw most things and experienced, mother didn't hide me from the truth, tons that ppl don't ever know of or are oblivious to. so why do i even begin to think that marriage will make me the real kind of happy? Chels and I are a bit more realistic and yet dramatic and we can be negative, we only try to keep it real... but she replied that we can't think that something will make us happy and depend on it. Of course i knew this but i had to hear it. And yes, marriage is a happy thing, but to hav it good and HAPPY, one must work and be dedicated to it. I can't pretend and make myself believe that i will finally be happy once Im married. I want someone to color me happy but in reality, I must color myself happy, be happy to achieve happiness.

time to grow up

its about that time i decide to grow up.
tomorrow, or more like when i wake up, i will be more grown up than before i went to sleep and i will plan out more grown upish, maturish and womanly things for my future. no more little girl stuff.. i am a woman

ps.
my fuji instax camera comes in this week!
whoot! whoot!!

baby mama

I was a baby's mama for a couple of days.
This is little baby Leslie. She came from her mother, my cousin, Iris.
Little Leslie enjoys waking up around midnight for a yummy snack and loves to lie awake with me from about 2 am to 6 am. Then we nap for a while and then decide its time to start our day. I love little Leslie. I was not always too happy about not sleeping but napping in my arms was quite a treat. I love how little babies fit perfectly in my arms, how they sink into my chest. I miss her. She is faraway now.