i just have began to realize,
that i often depend on others to make me happy.
To make me happy with their approval, happy with their smiles, their stories... Happy with objects. Last night while video chatting with C, Chelsea the lil lady, I was talking to her about being happy. I told her how ppl, I raise my hand at this, associate marriage with happiness. I grew up in the real world of black, white and gray, i saw most things and experienced, mother didn't hide me from the truth, tons that ppl don't ever know of or are oblivious to. so why do i even begin to think that marriage will make me the real kind of happy? Chels and I are a bit more realistic and yet dramatic and we can be negative, we only try to keep it real... but she replied that we can't think that something will make us happy and depend on it. Of course i knew this but i had to hear it. And yes, marriage is a happy thing, but to hav it good and HAPPY, one must work and be dedicated to it. I can't pretend and make myself believe that i will finally be happy once Im married. I want someone to color me happy but in reality, I must color myself happy, be happy to achieve happiness.
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I like this. :) I have always heard that if you cannot be happy before marriage, you will not be happy in marriage. Happiness comes from within, not from without. Sure there are things that can add to our happiness, but true happiness will always be with us if it comes from within. Then that can also add to the happiness of others!! Love you Brooke
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