Liberation

"Find a way to liberate yourself even though the path is going to be painful and full of suffering"
Today my psych-stress and tension management class was waaaay AMAZING!!
This entire semester we have focused on ourselves, learning to breathe, learning to get a sort of control of our emotions and thoughts... Realize we don't have much control of what is outside of us and learning to deal with STRESS! It has done wonders for me. It truly has. I have learn to recognize certain things about myself, know when something is coming and get ready for it before it arrives or when something pops into my life learn to DEAL. We talked about Buddha too. The guest speaker in class had just gotten back from a Zen retreat and was just so inspirational....

Hawaii has helped me in many ways, though I tend to complain about everything in life, I have learned to SLOW DOWN, BREATHE, Im trying to ACCEPT, thats just the way it is! Not the way i want it to be. When you adjust it feels better for 30 secs then gets worse... TOLERATE! We learned methods to meditate this semester as well. Meditation is not a complete runaway from life, its focusing on certain things, searching for control... its managing our thinking process.
I HAVE WHATEVER I HAVE, DEAL WITH IT AND FOCUS!!!


*photos from adventures to valley of the temples! :)

photos & quotes

"There is never a time or place for true love. It happens accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single flashing, throbbing moment""

"I knew that there were no guarantees. No way of knowing what came next for me, or him, or anybody. Some things don't last forever, but some things do. Like a good song, or a good book, or a good memory you can take out and unfold in your darkest times, pressing down the corners and peering in close, hoping you still recognize the person you see there"






"There comes a time when the world gets quiet and the only thing left is your own heart. So you'd better learn the sound of it. Otherwise you'll never understand what it's saying"





"But if everything was always smooth and perfect, you'd get too used to that, you know? You have to have a little bit of disorganization now and then. Otherwise, you'll never really enjoy it when things go right"





- i love Sarah Dessen, one of my favorite authors. all of these quotes are from her books that i have read.

happy thoughts!

i am sooooo easily thrown off by the simplest things in life.... i hate it. like being put on hold for 10 mins by housing then calling back and someone else answers and fixes it in 45 secs! insane...

here are my happy thoughts for this week!!!!!!!(including tanner up above :))

long talks with baby bump sister

smelling oh sooo deLiCIOuS!

umbrellas!! (Photo by Tha_Sco via the LAist Featured Photos pool on Flickr)


soaking up the sun and laying on the grass...

disposable funsaver cameras!

fun fun colorful yarn to make pretties!


and ABC.COM!! because i love Grey's Anatomy!!!


HAPPY FRIDAY!!!

:)

today is good.

while i was walking to school i came up with many reasons to be unhappy, i began to feel awkward under my skin. but then i thought about it and told myself i liked this and this... and that is why i decided to wear this... and if i look dumb too bad because i like this....





-decided to take a quick break from creating and designing watches for my visual design class. im more of a simple type of girl, i like pretty things but simple and colorful.

-i'll be back with a list of happy thoughts!

i want to, but what if i don't

i think too much, but i feel that because im always thinking, im safer that way.
I don't know. I don't even know what im doing with my life.
im so scared about growing up, what will i become? who will i be? Will i be good enough to meet my own standards?
Agggh... I don't know... I feel like i can't talk to anyone about anything because everyone is quick to jump to conclusions, to assume they understand me.
I wanted to change my major to exercise and wellness but a stupid advisor told me NO. I want to go to massage therapy school too, i want to specialize with pregnant women and infants, i want to be my own type of artist, i want to be a baker, a writer, a good friend, a lover, a great sister, a runner, a trainer, a yoga instructor, a traveler, a mother... There is much i want to do and im scared i'll never get to do them or i might forget who i am and where to go.


random angel head i came across when tanner and i went to valley of temples.

ps. these thoughts of me were gathered when letter writing natalie.

nooo goood, baad day....

my day has felt upside down.
woke up with a semi swollen eye, of course the world can't see it but i feel it.
i've been grumpy all day, there has been a couple of instances when i couldn't help laughter but been fighting it, i want to be mad for a while. i feel like i shouldn't be here, i'm feeling a little lost again.
the only reason why i feel guilty for being upset is because he is confused and i don't like causing him any feelings other than happiness. i am sorry dear.

anyway, t'was a quick break from homework.

*image from valley of temples. tanner and i visited last thursday. more photos to put up later.

guilty pleasures....

i'm such a bad student.....
every MWF i have my intermediate visual design class where i sit infront of a beautiful mac computer and am suppose to do my lessons/projects but i find myself making lists, following blogs, over flowing my brain with creative ideas.... and definitely not doing my work

my guilty pleasures....

beautiful mess

rockstar taza

polka dot robot!

vol. 25

nienie

bleubird

Amelia Lyon

and their blogs lead to others... and it just overwhelms my little peanut brain with magical and fantastical ideas....

one day i will be able to do and create all i want. until then, ill keep jotting down notes :/


HAAPPPY HUMP DAY!