ballet and cookies.....

getting ready for ballet

addy wants to be just like big sister
sisters!
ballerina princess
enjoying cookies :)

New ballet season!

Aubrey started ballet this week. Addison just can't wait to begin. I enjoyed watching addy try to do the routines and new steps Aubrey was being taught. My nieces are so adorable. I've been trying to capture all the cuteness.

Aubrey talks soo much.... She doesn't usually act like a 3 yr old. Ive been trying to get her to have one of those conversations where you are amazed, on camera!!

family time...

me n Ammon

I never grow tired of taking pictures of these cuties!!

I've spent most of the week with these girlies just before I leave take off. Im going to miss them!! Its incredible, my love for them! They are so sweet, but very loud and a little obnoxious at times.. hahah....

Also put up couple photos from San Antonio time...

I'm going to try to put up all the photos before i take off. All 3 of memory cards are full and i need to clean them up for the trip this weekend!!

Cousins Abel n Vanessa w/ Mama Rosa

feeling it :0

it's coming....
and i have to take a leap before i lose my ride.
So time is getting closer and im beginning to feel it all. I believe im mostly prepared..hah... I have no clue what is actually in store for me. I just hope for the best, and well how bad can it get??? Its uphill from here...
Just spent the last week with my family in San Antonio. Mostly just mi abuelitos, tios y primos. It was nice, but i was ready to come home... I have yet to go home. I am currently in Eagle Pass with my sister Ashlie and her family... And then I head home for a day and a 1/2... Then vroommm.... Idaho, here i come!!




finally finished Breaking Dawn... good read... Took my time to finish it. Enjoyed it very much so.

amor a la mexicana...

tacos al pastor....
agua de melon... (my fav)
delicious....
elote con chile, mantequilla, queso y crema
Oh dear....

I absolutely love food... Especially mexican food... Not that restaurant, cheap, nasty stuff. The food off the streets, in the little carts.. I have yet to find a decent mexican restaurant in Del Rio and even Acuna. Nothing tastes right. But Saturday our dear friend Jesusito came down to visit us before he heads out to Hawaii, and took us to Acuna and we ate at this restaurantish/cartish/trailor and YUMMM! Delicious, I love it! I love the hispanic in me... Its beautiful!! hahaha!!

Last Day!! Whoo Hoo!!

Today was finally my last day of work! I feel so free!!

I love the fact that I will no longer have to endure those tortureous mornings! Waking up @ 6am when I had only had gone to sleep at 3-4 am. driving out to base and watch people swim while wishing I was still in my nice, warm bed.. It will be nice these next two weeks, not having to worry about the time I sleep or have to rise early, not get enough sleep, forcing my eyes to stay open.... No longer will I have to mop the nasty deck, clean windows, hear complaints, and definitely no more sneaking into sauna for 10 min naps during my break :).... It will be good! Only things I will miss...

1. Sandra! She's my life guard buddy! We pour out our hearts to each other, gossip(try keeping it to a minimum) and eat oatmeal and snacks!

2. Cute swimmers with nice bods! ;)

3. Paycheck!! Its a pretty decent one and I need all the money I can get!!

4. Getting a good laugh at goofy, weirdos that swim!

and thats basically it.... I don't think I ever want to be a life guard again, unless necessary!

missed photo thursday....

Kylie has nice legs! ;)
Sexy pose...

I've been doing pretty lousy with doing photo thursday(posting best pics of the week) I don't always have time.. But these are a couple I really like! :) Remember Im practicing!!

We go wayy back

downtown Del Rio
Amistad Lake
our gangsta/paint ballin' face
Sydni, Mayra, Kylie :)
burned dogs.. still yummy... (they were crispy black, but we peeled off most

My girls came down this week from San Antonio and Austin to spend time with me before I take off. I had a great time! We tryed watching the meteor shower on monday, tuesday went to the lake and had a little cookout and had 2 photo shoots, swings and chocolate frostys, wed. chilled, another cookout, WII playin, movies, and shot eachother with paintball guns...very painful...haha

Its amazing how long I've been friends with them. Mayra and I have been friends since kinder, Sydni since 1st grade and Kylie since 7th. No matter how far (kylie lived in Japan and Wichita Falls for like 3-4 yrs, girls took off for college) or long we go without seeing eachother we always are so close. When we get together its as if we were never apart. We just catch up on the drastic changes, heartaches, exciting and happy times. I love them! We are all so different yet we get along wonderfully!! We go wayy back! And I know we will always be close. We have helped eachother grow up in many ways and I am very grateful for that. We went from playing "the lion king" to being the spice girls and then forming our own little crew. Now we have our own tv show! :) (they picked a celebrities for each of us)

It's important who your friends are, it has been said that you can determine who you are or will become from the people you surround yourself with. I have a crazy set of friends, who mostly have the same standards as I do, not all, but I believe I am stronger and wiser because I was cautious with choosing my friends.

smells like teen spirit

High school....
What a drag. I hated this place so much. Not so much the place, but the people, their "doings".. I was the girl who walked the halls with a straight face,made as little contact as I possibly could with the zombies roaming around me. Of course I would occasionally smile when I actually took the time to look at the faces that belonged to the floating bodies. I just always was in a hurry get out. Soccer is about the only thing that was worth the suffering. I would do almost anything to play soccer again. I was a star. That was my high, my happy place..
High school was definitely a wild experience. Thinking of it sort of makes me sick. But today when I walked in, it was nice. The smell was nice. Weird, I know. Yeah, high school wasn't that bad, but it was bad. Again, the smell..... It was welcoming, very deceiving, but I didn't stay long and knew I could not be deceived. I have my battle wounds to always remind me and never let me forget. Sad thing about this all, if it was so horrible for me a year ago, I can't image how tortureous it must now be.

pretty impossible lady to be with

every crazy day drives me CRAZY!

And well when the craziness eases, I always, always, realize that it actually wasn't that crazy and hey, Im still alive and tomorrow is another day! I have trouble expressing myself. I hope its a problem that comes in the package of being female, I would prefer to use the term woman... I make things so complicated. And complicated is ok, I have learned to accept that. "But the truth is.... I like being so complicated. I hate so many things but if things were actually always good, perhaps everything would be less meaningless, life would be boring. I would never quite enjoy the happy & good times" (directly from my journal)
Im so scattered brain, crazy.. How many more times must I say that? I have myself convinced, but perhaps I say this continuosly to remind myself, never let myself forget. Crazy is good. I believe that is why, and how, I don't ever, completely let life overcome me, by telling myself Im crazy. So I haven't shown my pessimistic self here. Lately I've been bright and all smiles but this weekend turned me upside down. Let me just tell you, I once was an angry old woman, very impatient, unhappy and angry. This was not very long ago. My poor family had to witness this. This definitely happens sporadically. Because I was very giddy when 2008 begun.... Then had enough and was angry!!! @Z*! Then :) then :W & :( . You know it could be completely normal, which I hope so, then at the same time would like it to be abnormal..Don't ask, I don't quite know why. Anyway, I had to state that I can be very, very negative, wouldn't want to show a false image of Brooke. But mostly Im :) because Ive learned to accept things, many things...

I've learned to accept that I don't have the best voice, that sometimes, when I wake up, I look freaky, quite frightening.
That I can't change people, all I can do is let them know I care, share love and be an example. I've accepted that I suck at commitment and that I cannot keep a boyfriend very long.
Im not the best baker and certainly suck at cooking.
My vocabulary isn't grand, my grammer is horrible.
My dancing moves are a little whack and I look strange when I do dance.
I suck at aerobics due to coordination.





And the list goes on and on. All these things bothered me at one point and of course occasionally seem to bring me to a low and remind me that I suck at life but then its all ok. The thing about me is I tend to cry, mope and be devastated about the silliest and serious matters of life then soon after can just smile and laugh about everything. My sister told me that theres a possiblity that my snapses are jacked up, my emotions are so sporadic, and sometimes make no sense whatsoever. And I'm ok.
(sorry my photos aren't clear. Got them off my photobucket, have no clue why they appear that way)