oh i love!

oh how I love him!
such a sweet man who writes me beautiful letters and emails... and texts! I hope this never ends.
It is getting closer and CLOSER! 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7! days til i get to see the man of my dreams and smell, taste, kiss, hug, and hold hands with him. He surely is a hunk of love. All this time waiting and now it's right around the corner! Oh the pure excitement! So a week in Hawaii, the island of love, where i fooled him into loving me, and then off to Alaska. Then back home after those adventures :( but not looking forward to it, so I'll just pretend it isn't happening for now.
I love than man.

 (Canada last summer-Chelsea)

Do I really look like I'm 16 yrs old? For over a month I have been substituting at all the campuses here in Del Rio. When I first substituted for the middle school, they told me I looked like I was 14! A bit of an exaggeration if you ask me! Many times I have heard I look young now that I'm older but when I was 14-16, people actually thought I was 17 or 18. Last week, while subbing at the freshman campus, 2 boys asked me, "Miss, you're like 17 right?" And I turned and looked at them, with annoyance, "I wouldn't be here if I was 17!" Students automatically ask me as they walk into class how old I am. As if it matters. A coworker yesterday( at Chilis, my other job), about 23 yrs of age, asked me if I go to school. I explained the whole dippity -do, (taking a semester off, senior in college, blah, BLAH) btw is SO ANNOYING! And he starts laughing. "OH Brooke, I thought you were 16 and still in high school." So everybody, though I apparently act like I am 16 yrs old, and look like it, I am NOT. I am 21.5 yrs old :)

Sunday

Sundays are so lovely.
Spring-y Sundays are even better. The weather is soooo beautiful today. At the moment I sit in my backyard enjoying the yummy breeze and listening to music that reminds me of Tanner and just some of my favorite relaxing tunes.(Iron & Wine)
The photos above are of our first weeks dating. Feels like so long ago. Though our courtship wasn't very long, I know we didn't rush into anything. Our first 3 weeks together felt like 2 months, when we actually hit 2 months it felt like 5 months... Therefore our 4ish-5ish months of dating were like a year!! :P But we knew right away we were meant to be together. Tanner was made for me. And though its freaky to say this out loud, to write this for the whole world to read as they like, I love Tanner and feel he was made for me; to make me smile, to dance with me like nobody is watching, to say the most ridiculous things and make me want to walk away, to make me feel spiritually uplifted and to wash dishes with me.... He is far more than I could have ever asked for.

July 23rd I will be his wife. :)





What is the difference between a vegetable and a fruit?

A fruit is actually the sweet, ripened ovary or ovaries of a seed-bearing plant. A vegetable, in contrast, is an herbaceous plant cultivated for an edible part (seeds, roots, stems, leaves, bulbs, tubers, or nonsweet fruits). So, to be really nitpicky, a fruit could be a vegetable, but a vegetable could not be a fruit. When you go to the grocery store, fruits are those items regarded as those not used in salads and not generally intended for cooking. So, tomatoes are in the vegetable section because of the way they are used (cooked and in salads).
-Dictionary.com

you're the best i ever had

To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold Utopian dream
You do something to me that I can't explain
So would I be out of line if I said
I miss you?
I see your picture
I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine
You have only been gone ten days
But already I'm wasting away
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon
But I need you to know that I care
And I miss you

I Miss You, Incubus

I miss Tanner. This song tells how I feel.
My days start then end. I drag myself from place to place. Things seems without purpose, I feel like a robot.

On a higher note, 26 days til I get to hug and sniff Tanner D. Such a lovely fellow, can't wait to kiss those luscious lips.

PS. I noticed this blog has become all about Tanner, hahaha...






Here are some pics of the ring! Our hands look like oldy people's hand!

(eating malasadas!)

one month, 4 weeks & 2 days, 31 days!!!

life seems a bit more tolerable when we do our count downs.
Bought my one way ticket to my loverboy, and the island of love, for that is where we found each other. I'm excited but then sad. Can't help but think of the fact that the sooner i see him equals to me preparing to leave him, AGAIN. We can do it, we have to do it. After all, we are getting married, soon :) Tanner says June 25th, still working on figuring some things out before we make it official.

Here is a photo of our first adventure on our own, as a couple. 2 or 3 week of dating.
I love thinking back, reminiscing to the days when we were new to dating(again), when I was so shy, and a little crazier than now... And not knowing where this would take us, if anywhere. Now, about 20 weeks later, we are planning our wedding, planning for eternity, TOGETHER! :)

ps.
new headbands going up on etsy tonight. check me out!
http://www.etsy.com/shop/beebrookecreations

And you, my love, are gone

The sky looks pissed
The wind talks back
My bones are shifting in my skin
And you, my love, are gone

My room feels wrong
The bed won't fit
I cannot seem to operate
And you, my love, are gone

-The Chain, Ingrid Michaelson


Today was such a sad day for me. It was time for me to wash the bed sheets tanner slept on. I've been sleeping there, smelling him, enjoying his body oils. Sounds sick, geh? but i don't care, it's one of the few things i have to hold onto til we meet again... sad, sad day...

white ideas!!

(images bing-ed!!! sorry no credits!)

time to dress search!! the top 3 images are my fav ideas that i want to mesh together!!! i am probably going to go crazy, crazy... like i need any more of that!