i want to, but what if i don't

i think too much, but i feel that because im always thinking, im safer that way.
I don't know. I don't even know what im doing with my life.
im so scared about growing up, what will i become? who will i be? Will i be good enough to meet my own standards?
Agggh... I don't know... I feel like i can't talk to anyone about anything because everyone is quick to jump to conclusions, to assume they understand me.
I wanted to change my major to exercise and wellness but a stupid advisor told me NO. I want to go to massage therapy school too, i want to specialize with pregnant women and infants, i want to be my own type of artist, i want to be a baker, a writer, a good friend, a lover, a great sister, a runner, a trainer, a yoga instructor, a traveler, a mother... There is much i want to do and im scared i'll never get to do them or i might forget who i am and where to go.


random angel head i came across when tanner and i went to valley of temples.

ps. these thoughts of me were gathered when letter writing natalie.