I am not a cookie maker....

and it breaks my heart....

I really want to be a cookie maker but Im just uncapable of this. I suck at cooking as well. This weakness is very depressing and I hate it. No worries, I shall come off conqueror of this. But all in good time. I have no patience, this applies to almost EVERYTHING, I hate to follow directions/instructions(major problem, I am aware), I like to add in my own little ingredients, and almost never use measuring spoons/cups. I am crazy, I feel it and act it. Hah... and ugh...

Today i was feeling a little dysfunctional; mentallly, physically and emotionally. Went to the library, ALONE, no one wanted to join me. I usually like being alone but for some reason Mondays (no work!!)are the days I want company and well Natalie ditched me for a phone call and Becca, my new sister, was going to the lake. So I went to the library, returned books from last week and well searched, searched, for almost 30 mins for a new book, no luck... I was so annoyed by this time.. So I got a weird book, love the one you're with. LOL. And keeping the moon, a book I read last year. I mostly read Young Adult books dealing with teenage love, a little bit of tasteful romance, just to fill in the empty hole in my heart. Its not pathetic, I don't care what people think. Reading this stuff makes me happy, even if it isn't reality. I really get into the books I read. Like I said, I'm crazy... Any-who!!! After all this, lunch with girlfriend, got home and decided to bake cookies!!! I use to bake back in the day for my little boyfriends (5 yrs ago...) And I was pretty decent with the oven, they kept begging for more, so I must have been doing something right! But today my oatmeal chocolate walnut cookies came out lookin like fried chicken! LOL!! Oh dear, I thought. "I am not a cookie baker" I need to grow out of this horrible non-baking deal or I'll never marry! haha... And I really do what to marry.

So I will continue to suck and bake and perhaps I will master it!! :)

(stupid blogger isn't uploading my photos of my fried chicken looking cookies. Will try again later..)