just breathe.

i tend to make life more difficult than it already is. I like to hold my breath when i shouldnt, i tend to count in my head when im pouring water in a glass, i count when microwaving food(microwave already counts down for me) when im brushing my teeth i count.... When im in line for any reason i also find myself counting. And im sure there are plenty of other times . But my need for speed in life might very well be bringing it to a closer end. I am begining to think that because i am always in a rush, ALWAYS counting down, always freaking out about my current situation, nonstop complaining and overanalyzing everything i come across, i will live a shorter life than intended. I must relax... and breathe. Ive taken up running, trying out oil painting(not very good), napping is now necessary and thinking before speaking. Helps some but not quite enough. I pray that my time in the holy land of paradise, Hawaii, that i will learn to hang loose and just chi-lax. i need to take a breather and just be. No more tomorrow panics but now moments. Its time i think about now.